I have a new job. Today was my third day there.
The job is fine and it’s a whole lot better than the minimum wage job I left to go there. But, I have conflicting emotions about what I’m turning into. For instance, I enjoy the fact that I’m “growing up” somewhat! I iron my shirts everyday (I NEVER ironed my shirts), I get stuck in rush hour, I dress well, I shower and shave daily, I listen to “Damn, It Feels Good To Be A Gangsta” on my way to work, I even have my own cubicle!
However… I don’t know if I want to do this! I like the money and stock options and security and advancement possibilities, but… do I wanna be a sheep?? Ok, so I think the sheeple thing is a bit silly…
but there is something to be said about being a drone, being another cog, and the feeling you get when you start to realize that everyone you work with (due to dress codes) looks exactly the same and we go in and come out and don’t talk much and, well… it’s all very ant autopilot.
How can one change the world when they’re just running on the hamster wheel day in and day out for 9hrs minus 1 hour for lunch? I guess at the moment I’m just working to live, but… someday I hope to work AND live.
It’s not like the job is completely unfulfilling and it’s not like it has no meaning. I just wonder if this is the life for me. I could conceivably work my way up through this company and live a very stable successful life. But can one live a stable successful life and still be a game changer?
Well… that’s what I leave you with today.
– Brandon Holly –